I Give Up!!!!!!

Ahhhhhh!!!!! I give up!!!!!!

 
That's it, this is too hard!!!!!! I give up!!!

Stop, breathe, regroup..... No, I don't want to give up, I just feel like giving up.

My body has decided to be stubborn this week and work against me - despite me being nice to it!!! In 2 weeks, on October 1st,  my weight had gone from 108 kg to 104.3 kg. A few days later I was 104.0 kg, and now for the last 5 days it hasn't budged. In fact this morning I am 104.1 kg. I feel frustrated as I am doing everything right yet my weight loss seems to have stalled. I got upset yesterday and made up a bowl of dessert stuff, and instead of having a small amount, I ate the whole thing. Comfort eating! Oh dear.

But, this is expected when you think about what I have put my poor body through. It has been starved, stuffed and filled with toxins for most of my life - that's a large part of 40 years! My body must be freaking out thinking "Oh geeze, we're on a diet again. I better hold on to this fat because she's gona stop eating soon". You can't blame it.

Stalling, plateau, halting - whatever you call it, its tough. Its disheartening. And it can undo you!! Beware.

I wanted to share what I'm going through right now, as I cant imagine anyone on a healthy eating plan, diet or change in lifestyle has amazing days every day. Everyone falters and has "I wana give up!" thoughts and feelings.

You just need to;

Keep your head, don't get dismayed, just keep doing what you're doing and trust the process. It will happen, and it happens over time. Like hiking the Inca Trail, there are ups and downs along the way, but you are gradually getting  higher up that mountain range and will end up at the top overlooking that gorgeous view!

Tomorrow I have the added challenge of going to a conference in Darwin for 5 days, where there will be tons of food (crap food) and alcohol all for free. It will be difficult to eat clean and low-carb. I imagine there will be lots of fried things, lots of bread and pastry, and lots of sweets. I have a function to attend every night where there will be free alcohol - and I will be drinking soda water. I have prepared for this trip, as that's the best way to navigate these things. But, heading up there feeling like giving up is going to make it sooooo much harder!!!! I will post from up there and let you know how I'm going.

Until then, if you're on a downward slope like me, whether its dieting, abstaining from alcohol, exercising more, or just trying to be a better person, just pick yourself back up, look skywards, because that's where you're headed. Trust the process. Trust yourself.

Look yourself in the eye and tell yourself you are beautiful you are strong, you are amazing!!

"No you are more beautiful. No YOU are more beautiful..."

See you in Darwin!  xx